There's a long story behind this, but I will explain the situation at hand.

My boyfriend is coming to graduation (Hooray!) and my mom wants to invite him to a graduation dinner (Boo.) and when I told her no, that can't happen, she goes into one of her fits again and yells about how Matt and I need to get over this whole family deal and just accept the fact that he needs to face her again one day.

I'll try to summarize the last four years for you: Girl meets boy. Parents get divorced. Girl grieves. Girl loves boy. Mom lives with girl. Girl fights mom. Boy loves girl. Girl grieves because of distance from boy. Mom fights girl. Girl defends. Girl fights mom. Mom defends. Now you know.

My mom and I have never gotten along. Yeah you figure, oh she must come from a great and loving home to make such cool drawings and be such a cool artist. For those who think so I am sorry to disappoint. (This journal is my opportunity to express my feelings. No one is home, boyfriend is at the movies, and no one's online. Time for loneliness!) All the fights and tears i've been through, so has Matt. As if he was there comforting me from all the pain.

So now, I guess I don't blame her, my mom wants to hold this big dinner for all of us and get together with my boyfriend Matt for the first time in a long time. (He lives in Ohio, I in Wisconsin) But emotional pain does not heal easily. So I told her mom, no, Matt would be really uncomfortable if he were to be around you and the family. He knows how you are. And she explodes.

I can't wait to move. August 3rd or so is the day (The first weekend of August) and sad to say but, I wont be seeing my family for a long time. I love them but, scars on the outside heal faster than on the inside. Know what I mean?

Dang, I'm not sure what to do. What do you guys think?

I love all the positive regard for my work and its giving me so much inspiration to do and make more drawings. But I don't want to make -too- many works. I'm not sure what to do. Should I keep pumping more artwork into the gallery? Or wait and get a 'name' out there first before I do any more?

I'm new here so i'm not sure what I should do. From an experience standpoint, that is.

I have submitted new pictures for you all. PLEASE comment and enjoy, negative comments are always welcome too, feel free to bash me if you wish.

DANG! I got like a hundred favorites on one picture like six seconds after I post it! Hah! Looks like I know what people like, eh? Dragons... sounds like something I could definitely enjoy making!

I loved dragons ever since I was a little girl. Animals were my favorite, and dragons got refined from there. I've made all sorts of kinds of pictures, good dragons, bad dragons, flying dragons, fighting dragons, all sorta stuff you could think of. I have artwork at my school I have to take pictures of yet, and I will promise you... you will see much more work coming from me!



Your +fav's do well in return, that's for sure!

Yeah been awhile I guess in this journal. Honestly I don't spend much time here but like most people my age and profession, they want to be seen and known so i'm trying to make a name out there for myself. Technology has become a major part of the world we know today. I want to try and create a world where cameras and computers are not needed to create beautiful artwork. Yes you can go ahead and say that I made photographs too but I am not saying that photography is bad for the art world:

All I want to accomplish by making it through DeviantArt is that I want people to know that traditional styles of art like drawing and painting can be as beautiful, if not more, than technological styles.

I think that technology is all the hype nowadays, but I want to show you that it's not just about the click of a button, or the movement of the mouse. It's about the feeling and the mood you get from a mysterious painting or the warmth of a watercolor about sunrise. I love photography and computers as much as the next person.

But I want to create art that can excel the expectations of those who love modern art over old.